Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Maybe I Was Programmed This Way

I am broken.
Broken by words repeating themselves over and over in my head. 
As if they are my personal life source, yet they seem to be the only thing killing me.

I am uncertain.
Perhaps that's why I repeat the things I said I'd learn from,
And then question why I didn't listen.

I am rebellious.
In the small ways, at least,
Like slurping down a milkshake in the dead of a winter afternoon storm.
Or slipping in an extra line to break the structure.

I am a dreamer.
Wishing on stars and dandelions for the things that seem impossible,
But that I still have hope for.

I am contradictory.
A stubborn pushover in my arguments.
And simply complicated in my thoughts.

I am excitable.
Finding happiness in the small things about life,
Like watching sparklers throw a shower of light to the asphalt.

I am thoughtful.
Wanting to change things out of my control,
To fix things that are far too lost.

I am defensive.
Defensive over nearly everything, even the things that shouldn't matter.
Just to try and prove myself to people who shouldn't affect me.

I am human.
Plagued with flaws and insecurities,
but no robot could dream to be my kind of perfection, in fact, robots can't dream at all.











4 comments:

  1. "My kind of perfection." That's just awesome. Must be why we call it I M perfection.

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  2. I love the sparklers. It's such a pure example of giddy innocence. July 4th should come faster.

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  3. "I am broken"
    Love this. Very relatable post.

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